Quote from: Slurpee on November 01, 2023, 12:24:38 AMhappy halloweem!


FUCK! dang it. next year.

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This day in history

november 4ndrdth. four full nights have passed since halloween and "what ever happened to saturday night" has not yet left my brain. yesterday, just once, I attempted to close my eyes. I was assaulted by visions of meatloaf, both the food and the person. I hummed for three hours straight. I have since ceased blinking. hot patootie. bless my soul. I have not slept in days.

Quote from: FLOUNDERMAN_CLOCK on November 04, 2023, 11:15:42 PMnovember 4ndrdth. four full nights have passed since halloween and "what ever happened to saturday night" has not yet left my brain. yesterday, just once, I attempted to close my eyes. I was assaulted by visions of meatloaf, both the food and the person. I hummed for three hours straight. I have since ceased blinking. hot patootie. bless my soul. I have not slept in days.

you should probably sleep

mr lodge i don't feel so good *archie disintegrates*

my insides feel like sticky poop. you know sometimes when you take a poo and you can tell it's gonna be really sticky when you wipe your butt? my whole insides feel like that. sticky poop insides. hate it

I could probably write a pretty big list of all the things that suck about having cancer that nobody warns you about, because it's, like, stupid shit, that doesn't lend itself well to the sacred human drama of you-might-be-dying. sticky poop insides definitely top 11

if you call it a fandom people may be more receptive to your top 11 list

man I can picture the noodle dish that I want to eat right now so clearly in my head but I don't know what it's called

what's the italian dish that's like
angel hair pasta, but there's not a lot of sauce (or maybe no sauce?) but there's like bits of green herbs

is that just pesto? I feel like pesto's too green. the thing I'm picturing is like alfredo but not as creamy and pesto but not as green

ok never mind it's just alfredo


holy mackerel this looks good



for some reason when I think of alfredo I picture like shitty alfredo that you'd get from the place up the street that smothers everything in sauce. you know that place

Quote from: Slurpee on November 08, 2023, 02:47:58 AMok never mind it's just alfredo


holy mackerel this looks good



for some reason when I think of alfredo I picture like shitty alfredo that you'd get from the place up the street that smothers everything in sauce. you know that place

guess what I had for my birthday dinner? B)

it was hot dogs

PSYCH
it was angel hair pasta with alfredo.


it was from that place up the street though ;(

PSYCH AGAIN it was from a different place. I'm having a GOOD BIRTHDAY.

you say 'that place up the street' and I think 'oh he must mean pizza hut'

if I were carjacked at a stop light and the gunman said 'i won't steal your shitty car or kill you if you'll just drive me to the nearest place with alfredo pasta that isn't fucking pizza hut' I think I'd have to get out of the car

i wrote three very long paragraphs about my life but it basically boils down to "i knew better than to log into an mmo but i fucking did it anyway and now everything good feels bad and i can't stop thinking about dead peers i really think this isn't a natural reaction to a video game but also maybe it is a natural reaction to playing a video game over twelve hours a day when it isn't even fun"



also i really need to start taking care of paperwork i've been putting off because it turns out that's important

man ffff the last few months I've gotten addicted to like 3 different phone games that are basically dopamine treadmills. those ones that are designed to gently irritate you into paying microtransactions for gems or whatever
I've never been sucked into an mmo but I imagine it's the same part of the brain that's getting poked

it's like kurt cobain said, "you do it to yourself, you do, and that's what really hurts"

I am definitely, 100% sure kurt cobain said that

I'm fortunate in that I'm wired in a way where I eventually get angrier at the developers for doing bullshit to my brain than I am addicted and delete it out of spite

except for "legend of slime", that one's still got its hooks in me. they really nailed the fake progress ramping
I honestly couldn't even tell you the name of the ones that came before it or even how many there were. I think one was an idle merge game about mining? all of these games are predatory artless garbage that shouldn't exist and soon as one comes up with a concept like "merging" a dozen more pop up

and like I guess I resent the creators for the predatory skinner box bullshit but I feel a greater but more general resentment for the broad impersonal forces that create the conditions that foster it. it's like being mad at mold for growing in a dank wet corner. but those forces that make the corner dank and wet are vague and complicated so I'm just sort of grumpy all the time about the dank wet corner making video games less fun I lost my grasp on this metaphor somewhere

anyway now that I've made this all about me, sorry to hear you're having a rough go of it pcat
sending hugs and also concentrated psychic blasts of dopamine antagonists {{{{}}}}