Quote from: Flux;1956882I cannot be arsed to read this entire thread and get caught up on where it's at. Tree, I respected the fuck out of you. When I was active on this forum, I was in the latter half of being in high school and you were one of the top dogs here. In my mind, you were involved in pulling some crazy shit that I had no idea about just to keep our asses together. This site ran because of a random group of people that you were a part of.

I'll never have even a prayer of thanking you enough just for that alone. The money thing happened, and to me it was a huge "....fuck. whyyyyy." moment. I felt a massive betrayal, because in my mind at the time, you were flawless. Now I've graduated high school, graduated college, and I technically find myself in the "real world". Life is a fucking bitch. Honestly. I seriously cannot blame you for losing some money tied up in only the Clock Crew. Was it shitty of you to do? Sure. Compared to what real life entails, though? It was trivial. Absolutely, fucking balls to the wall not even notable whatsoever, as important as stubbing your toe. I thank you for being a worthwhile authority figure in a time where I was growing up, fuck everything else. You made mistakes like a human goddamned being. Fuck it.


I'm drunk.

I don't think I did a whole lot to keep things together. I just tried to give the community something creative to work on because the community was always looking for something to work on, and because I had a lot going on and needed something to contribute to. Trying to get CCTV2 together (when I had no idea what I was doing) was probably the only thing that kept me going in that first year that I didn't have any family or the home I grew up in to go back to.

And Harmony, don't worry about forgiving me. I'm very appreciative of the people who did, but I'm not asking for it, not entitled to it, and it certainly isn't a prerequisite for anything.

Anyway, another $20 down. A small step, but I didn't want to avoid it just because I think people will give me shit for it being a small step.

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Quote from: pop-tart;1956111What kind of jobs are you applying for?

Well fortunately, last week I was hired for a job transcribing interviews, business meetings, and those kinds of things. I had coffee with the guy running the business and he immediately wanted me to work with him. It's a small operation now, but he's had freelancers doing everything and he wants one person to take over their current workload so he can stop managing them.

I'm starting on that this week and although it's part-time for the moment, I may end up working on it full-time soon because he's making deals and it's growing quickly.

Until that happens, I'm still applying for as many other jobs as I can find near where I live: food service, retail, stocking the grocery stores/ Target/ IKEA, the Starbucks stores in the hotels nearby, etc. These have been majority of my applications, but I've had far better luck getting interviews in other places.

In a few weeks, I'll be having dinner with a director from an ad agency here. They actually approached me through an ad I placed. I have also been lucky enough to have interviews at five of the eight companies I applied for support positions at; I have second interviews coming up with two of them, I know I didn't get the job at three, and the remaining three either haven't finished looking at the applications or haven't said anything when I've followed up. So nothing definite from those, but at least two that are still open loops.

So, to answer the question: Everything I can find, not turning anything down, but going for as many different kinds of things as I can. Throwing spaghetti at the wall to see what sticks. A few things are starting to stick after working at it long enough.

Anyway, just wanted to check in and let you know that things are beginning to work out a bit. Hope you guys have had a good weekend.

I had two job interviews this week, and have at least two more next week, so things are looking up for me as far as my ability to actually do something about this in a reasonable timeframe, and that is all I care about right now.

Even though there are some people who want to see me actually stick aroundmake Flash etc. I will only be able to think about that once I have another job. Like I said before, I'm not going anywhere, but work is the only thing I can focus on right now.

Oh my god, I remember these terrible CGI cartoons. They all looked like they were made by dressing up rubber chickens and shaking them in front of a camera.

Quote from: CupClock;1954846I kinda have a funny story about that show, and by that i mean, its funny to me but i dont know if i'll be able to make it funny

I used to lie to shit when I was a kid, and my six year old lies of saying I've been to Donkey Kong Country turned into seven year old lies of "Theres a donkey kong country show" and my mom was going "No, Jordan, there isn't" "I'VE SEEN IT, I'VE SEEN IT" and then right around the time Fox Family came on, and that fucking show started it's intro, I went screaming and running to get my mom to turn the channel, and she flips the channel and it's the fucking donkey kong country show, and I'm like "HA! I TOLD YOU YOU WASN'T LYING!" and she's like "Jordan...I KNOW WHAT GOES ON TV, I WATCH TV, TOO. THIS IS THE FIRST EPISODE, IT'S A NEW SHOW." and I STILL didn't back down, i was like "NO, NO, THIS IS THE SHOW I'VE BEEN WATCHING ALL ALONG"

okay thats the end of the story

Haha, that's great. The Boy Who Cried Donkey Kong Country.

Quote from: Craisin;1954152TreeClock seems to have left as mysteriously as he re-appeared.

I haven't gone anywhere. I've just been busy with interviews, and figuring this out in private with Absinthe instead of rambling in the forums. We'll be putting something up where everyone can see it around Clock Day (if not earlier, but Clock Day was his idea).

Besides dealing with this I don't really feel like I have much business being here, so the fact that I'm not posting much shouldn't be a surprise.

I'll be talking to Absinthe about this tomorrow, and then I have an interview on Friday.

$10 isn't much to start out with, but if the interviews I have coming up go well then that will certainly make a big difference.

Quote from: beebles;1952859Actions speaking louder than words and whatnot.

$10 is what I just donated to the treasury. It's not much but I wanted to at least do something small to show that I am getting it going. I am talking with admins via PM about making better defined arrangements for everything else. Thanks to them for working with me.

Quote from: Sinister Clock;1952387The apology is empty at the moment, but as the empty money pit fills, so does the sorry pot.

Of course. I'm not looking for forgiveness, which may or may not come. Just to do the right thing as I am able, and I expect nothing from anyone in the meantime or even after the fact.

Hey guys,

I'm here to face the jury, so to speak. This is a really difficult thing to do, because I always hoped that when I finally did it, I'd be able to in the light of setting things straight. LumpClock and I had a great conversation that convinced me that I shouldn't wait for the ââ,¬Å"perfectââ,¬Â time.

For years since my mom suddenly passed away, I've struggled with really severe depression. It's made it really fucking hard for me to make a living and put food on my own table, on top of having to deal with legal obligations related to both of my parents and my mom's parents, all of which passed away in a pretty short period of time.

I spent a lot of time selling things that belonged to them to clean up their messes and make ends meet. At one point, I sold something valuable that was in my family for a long time. I fucked up by sending it via USPS without any tracking or insurance, thinking it would be fine. When it didn't get where it was going, the PayPal dispute sucked the life out of my account, which I was stupidly using alongside the Clock Crew's money. It's fucking stupid and it's 100% my fault.

I've perpetually been in a state of it seeming nearly impossible for me to put food on my own table and take care of myself. My financial situation sucks. I've interviewed for all kinds of jobs and repeatedly been told that I wasn't a good fit. My mental state has been shit, without family or friends to help me figure anything out. Certainly I've had no help figuring out my depression and my legal obligations. I've had no insurance for years and any medical problems I have just come out of my own pocket, which is virtually empty most of the time.

It's been the worst for me, and to top it off, I've felt guilty the whole time because I'm not good enough to fix my stupid mistake here. I never felt like I could show my face here without being ridiculed, unless I was immediately prepared to set things straight by making a SURPRISE! I FIXED IT announcement. And even if I could I still expected to be hated and ridiculed for my stupid mistakes.

Shame is the real name of the game here. I'm ashamed of my mistake and the way it hurt a community that I loved giving my time to. I'm ashamed of the circumstances that put me in a situation of living from eBay auction to eBay auction and even then, being barely able to make ends meet and move on with my life. I'm ashamed of not having a family to spend holidays with, or to encourage me when I struggle with this shit over and over again.

Since the beginning of this year, things have looked up a little for me. I've had some great freelancing clients that have helped me take care of myself, put food on my table, cover my expenses. I have had some promising interviews and other job prospects on the horizon.

I talked with PatriotClock and we're going to talk more about ââ,¬Å"replacing the treasury through installment payments or something of the sort. Really anything would be a sign of a serious desire for forgiveness.ââ,¬Â When I work that out with them, I will tell you all the details myself and let you know how I'll be held accountable for everything start to finish.

I never wanted to fuck this up. I made stupid mistakes at a time in my life when everything was falling apart. It would've been better to never have touched anything financial for you guys in the first place, which was also my mistake.

Any ridicule or hate I get, I probably deserve, and I don't expect to be very liked here even when things do get worked out, and that doesn't matter because I want to set my wrongs right however I can, however long it takes and whatever I need to do, no matter what anyone says to me about my past.

I also apologize for anything I said that gave any of you the impression that I was taking credit for your work. I'm just proud of the things I was able to be a part of here, and I hoped that pride would help me stand out to a good company, and help me get myself into a position that would let me set things straight here. I'll just strike my work here from the record and find another way to talk about the things I think I'm good at. I don't deserve to be able to associate myself with this place anymore, I've thoroughly un-earned it.

I didn't imagine my life going the way that it did, and I'm sorry that I've deprived you guys of an important resource because of my mistake.

Quote from: Matt Foley;1484230What happened to treeclock? Is he a busy li'l nigga or he just tired of this place?

both

I was having problems getting momentum for another big flash project after CCTV2 so I have been branching out to different kinds of art, freelance writing, and learning about business

Heyyy I get to go hang out with ZombieLincoln tomorrow so we will probably talk about this at least a little bit!

PAX has already stolen a big chunk of their spotlight though, and the ESA looked like it was going to tank a while back when companies started leaving it.

Oh no guys, my vote just got switched to Nader!

Quote from: SageClock;1431106Oh, I'd love to work with an artist. I've tried many times (paid and unpaid). But do you know how unreliable they are to work with if it's not their full time job? They're a lot less reliable than programmers, usually (and programmers aren't really all that reliable either) :P.

I think every artist here knows we're the most unreliable people on Earth, seriously.

A lot of the time if someone tries to interest me in some project, if i'm only slightly interested I still just can't do a thing for it. I have to be totally gung ho.

Check into the Blackberry Bold when that comes out for your carrier (or switch if you don't care), no Windows Mobile but still an awesome device.

I like the width, the colors are on the extremes of bland and hard on the eyes though. I think red is a poor choice in this quantity.

I'm going to use it but I would encourage some color tweaking fo sho

Fruit Mystery

+1 for Shadow of the Colossus being top priority. ICO and Okami should probably be soon after that. I thought Twisted Metal Black was pretty meh.

Star Wars Battlefront II if you've ever enjoyed classic Star Wars. Metal Arms: Glitch in the System for good multiplayer fun.

Quote from: Zombie Lincoln;1340245Planescape: Torment

Klonoa: Empire of Dreams

Quoting ZLC in this because he's likely the only other person in this thread who understands.

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Cool addition, made me turn sigs on again

ahh banning elementsclock, one of clockcrew's oldest traditions