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[AMPEEEM]

Alright, so you know how when pepole tell you to write what you know? What if you legitimtly feel like you don't know anything? like there was something you weren't let in on in that the general public is, or when you litteratly feel dumb, like you were just raised like shit and now paying for it by being null in the head. What do I do? I want to create, I love art and debate and history and thinking about the human coniditon and reading, but when it comes to writing or holding a debate, or even just holding a single fucking consistent opinion, I'm at a total loss, and I'm turning to the serious face of the clock crew, in hopes it might look me in the eyes and share a little wisdom, I don;t know, it's late and Im over serious, too, I can feel it, but whateves

[Kombucha]

I bet you know more than you think you do. Once you find out what you do know, it's easy to work with. Additionally, it's certainly not hard to learn a few things if you really feel like you don't know enough.

Knowledge can be difficult to quantify and people often underestimate themselves. You shouldn't be a braggart or a "know-it-all", especially if you can't back it up, but you shouldn't worry about your lack of knowledge very much either.

[AMPEEEM]

See, now here's what I'm saying, I'm getting too cerebral. Like take CLam for example

I bet HE'S never done this, or most of the clock crew, they never needed to, to look for reassurance that they have intellect, that their mind is functioning well and able to hold itself together, and just BE, you know, have ONE personality, be ONE person no matter who you are around, hold ONE opinon no matter who is trying to convince of their plight.
I don't mean the clock crew specifically just smart people, man, I don't get it. People who are like, edgy, or cool, I don't know, I never got it, and I feel like I'm lacking because of it.

I just feel dumb, and I don't know how other people do this thiiiiing where its like HEY MAN HERE I AM and I see these other people doing this, and its like everyone is fucking doing this, and I just try to keep up and I don't, I never have, I don't know how, but I want to, because it looks like thats what its all about. The only people who I can relate to in an honest way are forty years older than me, because we can just fucking have a fucking conversation, I don't know.

TOday everyone is ripping on me and I have no patience for it. Maybe I'm seriously just a fucking idito who can't do anything right, but fuck you.
Stupid is the worst word, ever. To call someone stupid or too insuitate that someone or something is stupid and your not, it just blows my fucking mind.

[AMPEEEM]

Thanks Kombucha, maybe I just need to rant. It's like I can trace it back to this one moment, when everything was still totally cool, and then kids at my elementary started learning about Punk music and having attitude and shit like this, and then valley middle school and then this whole fashion clique thing happened, and then high school was a secret back-handed judgement fest all over it, and then post high school has been the most analytically crazy shit I have ever experienced, all I feel like is no wants to talk to each other, but rather just constantly examining each other.

Aaand I've done enough bitching I think, cause now I'm getting embarrssed b