Am I the only one who finds themselves staring a lot?

[Lump Clock]

I realize a lot of the time I spend staring .
Staring at my computer screen trying to decide if there is a game I hate the least enough to play.
Or staring at concepts; like staring with their minds eye at the disaster of the world, or the disaster of my country, or simply the struggle that is life.
Or maybe staring into space, and the idea that there is potentially endless nothingness in the vastness of space.
Or catching yourself staring at something beautiful/handsome/complex especially if it is another person who will definitely become uncomfortable if they notice your prolonged gaze.
I think I would wish for immortality so I could just observe everything.

EDIT: Oh right, I forgot to ask; do you all every have moments like this?

[GreyClock]

No, you are in fact the only person ever who does that.

[RenegadeClock]

I more often find myself pacing back and forth, saying "fuck" repeatedly.

[Kodiakclock]

I jerk off a lot.

[Slurpee]

you're not alone lump I am also a big weirdo

[Slurpee]

I jerk off a lot.

how much?

I remember somebody said once a day is too often and I'm like damn I'm pretty far into the sticks it might be quicker for me to head deeper into too often and hope it loops back around

[AlbinoClock]

Slurpee get on discord wtf.

[Lump Clock]

I really am a big weirdo.

No, you are in fact the only person ever who does that.

I mean I get it, I know I'm not the "only one" who does this kind of thing; teen angst aside I meant more like...
How often do we all experience that phenomena? I've found that the older I get the more time I am spending pondering those things and just kind of... wanted to see into your guys heads.

I mean are we all just Nihilists in the CC, is that unanimous? Or do we have very differing opinions?
I for one am very much on the fence about this whole cosmos and meaning of life thing.

[Kodiakclock]

I jerk off a lot.

how much?

I remember somebody said once a day is too often and I'm like damn I'm pretty far into the sticks it might be quicker for me to head deeper into too often and hope it loops back around

yeah at least once a day but usually more.

[GreyClock]

I really am a big weirdo.

No, you are in fact the only person ever who does that.

I mean I get it, I know I'm not the "only one" who does this kind of thing; teen angst aside I meant more like...
How often do we all experience that phenomena? I've found that the older I get the more time I am spending pondering those things and just kind of... wanted to see into your guys heads.

I mean are we all just Nihilists in the CC, is that unanimous? Or do we have very differing opinions?
I for one am very much on the fence about this whole cosmos and meaning of life thing.

Infinity is fun to think about. E.g. the cyclical model, whether correct or not, that if there's an infinite array of big bangs that it's statistically possible that the configuration of atoms that forms the "me" that is typing this has typed this same sentence before in an exact carbon copy of this universe. In infinity the apparent unlikelyhood of something like the English language developing exactly as it has in our reality is nonetheless possible. Or something like the pattern of waves on all the open waters of the world being exactly the same at the moment I type the following dot. Or how many universes have there been where from beginning to the end every bit of matter has been in the exact same "position" at the exact same "time" with the only difference being that my lighter is not white, but blue, or red. In infinity my lighter will have been white or blue or red an infinite amount of times. Not that we're (or I'm) special as there's also been an infinite number of universes without an earth/solar system/milky way etc. The same could also be applied to multiverses, or a single, but infinite universe. Then there's the universes with different physical laws & constants and dimensions that we are unequipped to even fathom.

[Lump Clock]

Keeping that in mind, the vastness of everything is so humbling. Even if our consciousness did persist beyond the lifespan of our bodies it wouldn't really even matter. Our existence is so small compared to the infinite universe- let alone the theory of an infinite multiverse; it's enough to floor anyone.

I think the best thing any individual can do is cope with that concept and enjoy their existence as much as possible, however difficult that may be.

[PhantomCatClock]

Yeah. That's kind of scary for someone as stupid as me so I try to avoid thinking about it.

Usually when I stare off (60% of my time not spent at work) I'm just fantasizing or doing nothing.